Updated: Dec 24, 2020


Hello beautiful humans. It's been a while since I've written on here but been feeling the need to get back into it recently. I'm taking that as a sign from spirit to share my writing and thoughts more with others so anticipate some more stories from me on my life, art and poetry, 2020 has been one heck of a year to say the least. So much within the outer/external world has happened and definitely feeling like it's in a state of transition. Covid-19 and it's impact was one of the most unforeseen obstacles and although it has been extremely tough, it brought me a lot of good.


At the beginning of the year, I was really manifesting down time and rest. My mental health was getting the best of me and I felt intensely that I needed a break. Then quarantine happened and I got my break but way longer than what I was anticipating. I guess it's true when they say that if you aren't specific with your request and intentions, you'll get what you ask for, even if it's general lol. My time in quarantine was overall good. It forced me to get closer to my mental and physical health and come to the realization that I had more work to do and needed extra support.


It's been a lot of developing and sticking to morning and and night rituals, intuitive eating, art therapy, quality time with my fiance and new dog Hendrix, self care, and going back to therapy. Although I do miss freely being able to go out into the world without fear, I'm very grateful for the time in solitude with my little family because it's been a great time of growth and transformation for me. Moving into 2021 feels uncertain, as far as the state of the outer/external world is concerned, but hopeful and magical for my inner world. Next year I'm getting married to a my life partner and soul that matches my own. Words can;t describe how ready I am for that moment and new life transition for us both.


One amazing blessing that came from this year was adopting a dog with my fiance. Hendrix is one of the best things to happen to us and it was perfect timing that we got him before the world went into quarantine. He wasn't intended to be an emotional support animal or anything of that nature but he definitely ended up being that for us in may ways.


Truly wishing all of you the best finishing out the holiday season and 2020 as a whole. Sending you blessing and lots of light. Be well.

Updated: Jul 5, 2019



Hi to all the beautiful humans reading this! I'm really trying to find a way to be more consistent with reflecting on here about my work and current adventures but it's hard initially getting a routine going but it'll happen for me eventually lol. Recently I've been working on a collaboration with Alex Moonsang (@a.moonsang & alexmoonsang.com), creating a zine and it's finally complete! Alex and I met through a collective we're in this year called The Gold Mined Collective and I couldn't be more grateful.


For those who don't know, a zine is just a small independently self published booklet, like a magazine. The inspiration behind this project was the bones will replace the word memories series featured in "The Burned House Resurrects" (link to purchase in menu). This series is special to me because it holds a certain vulnerability that I don't normally like to share. Bones are fragile and hold a lot of history just like memories. And I really like the texture of the word and the image attached to it. The only bones piece featured in the zine is "Burial Grounds" because the poems that accompany it in the zine are all memories that have been buried in one of our homes growing up. I didn't start the zine with this concept and structure but Alex pointed out that Burial Grounds seemed to sum everything up, and from there, we just went with it.


Alex's work is more than just pretty. Although I knew that even before I started working with her, after this project I'm realizing that her art is truly more than meets the eye. I love that as creatives, we have meanings for everything in our work that some may never understand or discover, but they're there. Upon finalizing the zine, she shared some insight to her intention with each piece and I wanted to share the magic with you.


About the cover:

"The two bones I drew are bones that are in humans and birds, the humerus (wings) though I'm pretty sure many animals share that bone but I though it was important!


The Chrysanthemum, which is my favorite flower also has multiple meanings but two that mean the most for me are in Japan, they use it during funerals but in China it represents longevity!"


About the first poem:

"And the hand piece I felt like talking about your brother as a moth and darkness. I put the moth in the palm, it's almost an uneasy feeling that the moth can fly free or stay underneath this hand that is either opening or closing."


The print copies of the zine will hopefully be available starting next week (Jun 08-Jun 12) through my website. We will only be printing 10 to start, each for $10. The goal is to launch a store where I can sell the physical zine copies, signed copies of my book, and more. For now, the digital zine is still available through Alex's etsy shop (link in menu.) I also considered starting a monthly newsletter with sneak peaks to upcoming merch, sharing unreleased pieces with you all and overall just checking in and letting you know I'm still alive and well lol


I will be writing a reflection about my trip to Toronto, Canada with Curtis very soon!

Updated: Dec 23, 2020



"...and I became the butterfly turned lilac that grew from a dying one"-Feeling Indigo

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about why I create and what keeps me creating and i think it's just the possibilities of what could be. After publishing "The Burned House Resurrects," I told myself that I would pump the breaks on writing about my dad and all the feelings that live there because it's time to accept and let go. Since then, I've created two new pieces for the Color Collection by The Gold Mined Collective all while trying to finish my book. One inspired by orange and the other, indigo. This was a different exercise for me, creating a poem based off of something as broad and general as a color. It resulted in two unbelievable pieces but one in particular has sparked a series, my indigo piece titled "Feeling Indigo."


My goal with this piece was to describe how I've been feeling lately, which is indigo and what that translates to--exhausted and wilted because I'm basically a plant lol Also, the idea that when we're in so much pain (psychically or emotionally) we become blue and eventually numb to it all. I experimented with creating a series in my recent book, where the word bones replaces the word memories. It was a cool experience and since then, I've been wanting to do it again but in a more cohesive manner. I ended up using my indigo piece as the inspiration and decided to take certain scenes or lines from the original piece and create poems out of them. I'm really getting into flower anatomy and symbolism as well as the relationship between the body/soul/spirit so I'm just riding the wave. I'm not sure if this is the start of a new book or not, even though I already have a title and idea but I'm a little afraid to commit to that right now lol I'm just hoping as the year progresses, so will this series and that it'll be even better than the first one.


"I write poems in case I ever disappear"

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